I said goodbye.
I thought I was a milestone ahead. I thought it would be easier now that I wanted recovery more.
So why have I been continually emotionally eating and purging again? I was going so so so so well! The environment had been emotionally charged, a more challenging environment to deal with. Using food as my coping and so ashamed.
It’s a journey that even when you think you’re finally ok, the snake tempts. You listen, forgetting every wise thing you were taught and fall 12 feet deep in a hole.
Reminder…I have a ladder now. I’m not helpless. My ladder is the skills I learnt in DBT.
Climb the ladder again?